So my plan, for days now, was to
1) thank you all for your wonderful support and great advice after my last post and ask, yet once again, what would I do without you?!?
and
2) re-write/update my little take on ‘An Infertility Night Before Christmas’ that I posted last year:
Twas a few nights before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a spouse.
The OPKs were laid by the bathroom sink with care,
In hopes that a second line soon would be there.
Bosco the dog was nestled snug in the bed,
While visions of squirrels danced in his head.
And BeBop in his boxers, and I in my jammies (which are such wrecks!),
Had just settled down for another installment of baby-making sex.
When out in the bathroom there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from the bed ,and hopped over the dog, to see what was the matter.
Away to the sink I flew like a flash,
To check the ovulation-predicting stash.
The bathroom light shone like a star, giving me a sign,
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
BUT ONE SINGLE LINE.
I was off the hook that night,
Thank the good Lord above because I looked quite the fright.
So it was off to bed, sniffling, coughing and sneezing up a storm,
To skip sex that night, which is really the norm.
And then, as the dawn broke today,
I noticed still more EWCM in the region of the vajay-jay.
So it’s back to the sticks and the tests tonight,
In the hope we can, finally, get it right.
And Watson exclaimed, as she ended this post,
She wishes she could raise her glass in a toast.
To all of her new friends who lend such love and always have a clue,
She hopes in the New Year all of your wishes come true!
And THEN I said to myself, "SELF, ARE YOU CRACKED?!?"
I can barely put together a simple sentence these days, it’s usually more like "Bottles! Warm?!?" or me struggling to add 3 & 1/2 to the last feeding time while counting on my fingers. "Sooooo…3:30, 4:30, 5:00, wait, no…errrrr….uh, 3:30, 4:30, 5:30, 6:00 – ish??"
Here’s a quick update: Jax is finally (praise the LORD!) eating well! We did try different bottles and nipples and the boppy and holding him and bribing him (for some reason, the notion of a fully-financed trip to the university of his choice in 18 years didn’t do the trick — what’s wrong with the kid??) and nothing worked, until suddenly one day about a week ago, everything clicked and he started drinking and liking it and wanting more.
Fingers crossed it keeps up because I was on the verge people, on the verge…
And as for breastfeeding? I threw in the towel. And the pump. I gave up. And although it was hard to come to terms with the idea of not breastfeeding at all, I just had to. Seriously, it took me a WEEK of pumping to get 2 ounces, which is so sad. At that rate, Jackson would have been enjoying his paid-for tuition and residing in a dorm room by the time I could produce enough milk to make any contribution to their feeding. So I gave up, and returned the hospital-grade pump and gave a sullen, "Uh, sure…" response when the woman asked, "So did that work out for you?"
OH! I do have news: Get this, a producer from the Tyra Banks show e-mailed me about my YouTube videos, to discuss an upcoming show on infertility. How crazy is that?!? I called her but she hasn’t called me back, so who knows if anything will happen, but wouldn’t that be fun?
And that, my friends, is the scoop from around here.
I know this isn’t much of a post, or an update, and I’m too lame to include any photos, but I did want to wish everyone a very, very happy holiday and may the New Year bring you much happiness, good health and magic…
XOXO, Watson
Happy Holidays Watson! So glad Jax is eating well now! Enjoy your joyful new year!
Merry Christmas!!!
OMG!! It would be SO awesome if you went on the Tyra Banks show. You would be such a great spokesperson for IFers and our IF community!!!!
Happy Holidays and Happy New Year to you, and your adorable little ones, too. (Oh, did I forget Bebop? Ok, him, too.)
XOXO
Merry Christmas, Watson, BeBop, Parker and Jackson!
Merry Christmas to all of you!
Merry Christmas to you and your family!!!
Happy Holidays Watson! I hope you, BeBop and the boys had a fantastic holiday!!
And I can’t wait to hear about the Tyra Banks show!!
Happy Holidays to you, Watson!
Although i find myself crying at the drop of the dime these days, this moment’s tears can be attributed to your poem… How it captures the bittersweetness of our IF blog-world: such pain, and yet so many found friends.
Thanks for the update. Can’t wait to see you on Tyra!
Merry xmas, glad to hear it’s coming together.
Re the Tyra show, get on it lady!!!
Give the kiddos a smootch from me. And don’t you waste one ounce of your brain power (limited as it may be without the sleep) feeling guilty about ceasing with the pumpage. I had to do the same thing with my big one (a.k.a. Ben) and I spent the next 5 years beating myself up. So.Not.Worth.It.
Merry late Christmas!!
Exciting about the Tyra Banks show! Cool, even if nothing comes of it!
Oh my god!!! You have to go on the Tyra Banks show!! LOL!
Oh man, so cool.
*I just told my husband about them emailing you and he’s currently spewing ideas for videos we can make to get ourselves on too…ugh, men* Hehe.
you’re destined for stardom, can’t wait to hear what happens with the show.
i cannot even imagine BFeeding twins, kudos for even giving it a shot. hope you all had a wonderful christmas!!!
Ooh…maybe we’ll see you on Tyra! (Of course, that means I’d have to watch Tyra…ick…well, Watson, I would watch Tyra to see YOU)
You would be the one of the best spokespersons for the IF community if you end up on the Tyra Banks show! I hope it works out.
Thanks for the post with your IF Christmas poem. Funny how much difference a year can make.
You would be the one of the best spokespersons for the IF community if you end up on the Tyra Banks show! I hope it works out.
Thanks for the post with your IF Christmas poem. Funny how much difference a year can make.
You would be the one of the best spokespersons for the IF community if you end up on the Tyra Banks show! I hope it works out.
Thanks for the post with your IF Christmas poem. Funny how much difference a year can make.
Dear Watson, I hope you had wonderful holidays, and I wish you, BeBop and the babies a glorious new year!
I’m sorry to hear about the breastfeeding troubles but you know, all the cool kids are doing it. Ahem. Seriously, it’s quite frightening how many of us are reporting troubles in that regard, and I sympathize completely with your decision to ditch the pump. You have more than enough to contend with, what with having TWINS and all. You have my undying admiration, my dear, and though things may look and feel overwhelming right now (it did for me, and I just had ONE), they will get better. They will.
Thinking of you…